My Blog

We only live once. During the down days, if you choose to
keep in mind that you probably have more chances than others, more things to be
thankful for than others, and more time to live on this Earth than others,
you’d be reminded that your life is indeed very precious.

I’ve been asking people if they feel bored of their life.
University, work, going out, get married have kids, grow old, retire, die. Then
they all just say, “ya I am bored, but that’s life" then I ask but "
isn’t there something that we’re meant to do here on earth?!” They say… ya…
but that’s life..? Or ya… I regret not doing whatever I wanted /was meant to
do… and they’re still in their 20s… To me that just means, they don’t
care!! Its like in DIE HARD 4, the computer geek asked Bruce Willis why he
wants to do what he does since the hero himself reckons its not all glamorous
being a hero. He just simply said because there’s no one else who wants to do
it. Not that I want to have people bowing to me glorifying me, but I believe
everyone was born a hero. But how many people out there care? How many people
truly believe in freedom of speech? How many people out there dare to fight,
and stand for what they believe in? Many just give up, it’s easier to just have
a simple quiet. Be content with what we have right? Do not covet.

Over the years, I was taught thinking that we should
appreciate and be content with everything I have, and wanting more is coveting.
A sin! That’s harsh. But now I realize that’s just a totally wrong concept.
That’s actually the total opposite of what being a human is all about. It’s
about standing up for our rights, for the truth, always striving for the
better, having faith in God, ourselves, love, the people around us and the
world.

Life is really short and instead of being burdened by the
heavy "shoulds" and "could have beens", perhaps it’s really
time to have the courage to make more mistakes, be sillier, and travel lighter
for the rest of your life.

For the past years of my life, I’ve been keeping a diary where I write my temporary goal, target, frustrations, achievements, rants, etc. Last night, around 12:45 I was about to sleep when something caught my attention… my diary (entries started from January 2006 - December 2007). I began reading it and was shocked about the things I wrote. During those times, I was setting a lot of goal, commitment. Not many to be achieved. I can’t even remember it. I decided not to finish reading it, I was already sleepy. As I was lying in my bed, I was thinking of burning the diary because I don’t wanna remember everything.
I woke up around 8.00 AM, sending a morning greeting message and forgot about my diary. When I prepared my clothes since I was going to take a bath, suddenly I remembered my diary so I got it and burned it!!! What was going thru my head while the diary is being burned? Well, letting go of something you treasured is tough but I already prepared myself. Now, I feel much better. Life must go on……

Youth, a winding
road, twisting and turning. Never truly knowing what’s up ahead. Feelings of
constant pressure and yearning. On many days you would rather be dead. Which
road will you take the up or the down? So many decisions, how will you choose?
Your day depends on a smile or a frown. It’s all a game, will you win or lose? Just hoping you can make it through the day. There is no point looking around
the curve. Each turn comes in an unexpected way. Impossible to tell, go
straight of swerve. However, how many of us are wise enough to not still smash
our heads against the wall knowing that it’s still gonna be a wall in the end? Is
it fair to say that it’s being optimistic to think that if I keep on smashing
my head against the wall I’ll eventually find a hole? but how many of us can
keep ourselves away from the thing that we know might not be right for us but
we still love so dearly? Let it be. Let it go. Lay it down……